last days

tomorrow is the last day of classes
ever
as a notre dame undergrad

not to make it all melodramatic ...
fortunately i said goodbye to classes last semeser
just like i said goodbye to football fall of 06

i knew it was going to be hard
ive always known
having friends like iain helps ... always on you about making sure it counts

now im studying for psych ... writing the last hitler paper ... bracing myself for the last late night in studio with my drawing

listening to radiohead concerts

two weeks from today it's senior week
which means in 15 days
R A D I O H E A D

i cannot say how much im looking forward to that concert
and dreading it

it will be amazing
beautiful
and SO MUCH FUN

matt, rob, brian, chris, maybe ben or joe, and myself are all driving down wednesday morning
12 hour roadtrip all toll

i just think ill need those hours being stuck in the car with the guys to be able to really feel like we did something that was close to enough
hopefully we'll be able to meet up with molly and her gang once we get to st louis

im sorry, there's a lot i want to express
but i dont think blogging is the answer

its been a weird blend of being reflective and panicked

i want to just spend everyday, all day
wandering around campus
memorizing every sidewalk, every crack

but instead ill have the walls of the library memorized
and the faces i see when i look up

and thats as much ND as anything i suppose

i know everyone loves their friends from university
and that's the hardest part of graduation

but ill be keeping in touch with the people who matter
many of my friend here are friends for life
we will communicate and know how each other is

but i cant have that relationship with campus anymore
i know this school, and she knows me

i love her ... everything.
and i dont really know how i can say goodbye

but somehow radiohead is going to help
is going to be saying goodbye
and i dont know why
but it will

this is my way of saying goodbye
because i can't do it face to face
no matter what happens now
i won't be afraid
because i know today
has been the most perfect day i've ever seen

















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i realize this is old news

but man
crazy world

the money quote is : "while she may seem like an oddity to some, her proud parents think she is simply a God reincarnated."




luck she was born in india.
far from being shunned, villages around the country have been sending money and presents

dude.

aprrrillllllllllll

so i was hanging out yesterday, and i realized it was april fool's day
which means a year ago yesterday, i was collapsed on steve's floor
incapacitated with laughter due to a prank zach and greg had pulled on him/me/the rest of the house
THEN i remembered that so inspired, i called home and said i had been in an accident or something
looking back, i know why i did that, and i clearly remember thinking it would be hilarious
but man
what was i thinking
i would NEVER dream of doing such a thing
now at least
i was musing over this with greg
he said it was obvious that i would do something in australia, given the company i was in 24/7
(someone was always being pranked at some given time)

so yeah
sorry about that
really can't believe that happened

so it is. i am not injured.
just bored, with a headache, and sitting in the library
i dont know why i still get massive headaches
i drink a ton of caffeine, stay hydrated, and sleep
i dont think im stressed out
busy, definitely
but not stressed

oh well.

i also just realized that i dont think anyone reads this anymore
which makes sense because i didnt update for three months, and i havent told you that im writing again
hmmm

for drawing we need to pick some favourite movies, and bring in freeze frames of people in interesting situations
we're going to draw one that myu prof likes, i think it'll be our final project before out Final final project
i want to be one i dont love love,
first because then when its done badly, i will be more depressed than if it was something i dont care about as much
and second. because if we are doing something similar for our last thing, i want to do my favourite shot [as of right now]
(do you know what it is?)
so im thinking ... im not sure
first thought was the Godfather II, michael looking out the window onto the lake
but then my prof said he got the idea from a friend who did it with one of the table meeting scenes from GF and so i thought that might be a little unoriginal
keeping it simple is key
idk

maybe brenden fraser yelling at the mummy ... thats hilarious, and super stylized, so it would be easier than something more serious and subtle ...