woof

yeah, i pulled *another* all nighter last night
the really really annoying thing is i was really exicted because initially i was going to be going to bed by 3 at the latest
THEN
i realized that i was going about my paper the completely wrong way, and at midnight had to delete everything i had written
(essentially half my paper)
and start ALL over again, new outline new everything
so i was up all night till 830, went to class and did some more reading,finding good quotes etc
then i skipped the second half of class cos it was just a documentary on the effects of vietnam on the vets
(i talked to people who stayed for it later, apparently it was 45min of old men crying)
wrote some more, went to my tutorial
wrote some more
FINNISHED
did a word count and i had 3,107 words
its a 1,500 word paper
DANGIT
so i spent about an hour and half trying to cut it down, but honestly everything i had to say was relevant
and i eventually got it down to 2,700
spaced it at 1.5 instead of 2 and am hoping for the best

im just annoyed, because the entire time i was researching it, i kept going back and forth on what my thesis was
so i really think its the worst paper ive ever written
and im really really mad about that
i know, if i had started it sooner, maybe it would have been better, more concise
but i dunno, i talked to the lady who's grading them, and shes really awesome
basically said as long as i made an argument and backed it up id be fine
and i did, it was just a fairly long and qualified thesis
SO
yes, can you tell im stil upset about this?
britt and cj keep yelling at me to stop thinking about it
ill get all quiet and in my own world, i get mad at them, saying that "HEY! how dod you know im thinking about the paper? i could be thinking about anything!"
of course they're right, i should just let it go
but MAN its just so frustrating
oh well, i guess we'll see
i really really hate it though.


grrrrr. must go back to bed and forget about it.